Derailed

Monday getting back on track

this weekend was NUTS, I totally BLEW my points. i really need to stop eating due to stress.

I started back on points today, I did ok, but I am battling the urge to just go and binge on whatever I can get my hands on. I hate stress.

I went swimming this evening because H was gracious enough to pay for me to go with her. I am going to keep track of how often she does that and pay her back in some way via favors etc. ( I am making her wedding dress and wedding cake for her july wedding)...who knew I was so talented,lol well actualylet me take a moment to brag, to boost my self esteem., I AM talented, when she was almost in tears because no store has a dress big enough for her ( she is over 350 pounds) i thought that with some modificatons I could make her a dress from a pattern with no problems, I ahve made prom gowns and wedding dresses before. so when I told hr I would make it for her if she bought the materials etc for her, she was very releived, and of course I am good at making cakes, so I will be doing a purple rose three tiered wedding cake for her with teddy bears bride and groom on the top. .. ok end of self brag and esteem boosting moment.

I pulled out my sewing machine and dusted it off and made a dedicated sewing corner for myself and am playing around with some ideas that have been bouncing around in my head recently. I made a little clutch purse last night out of jean material.

I went back to winning points, and I want it to be known that I will not.. make that totally refuse to wrap my brain around flex points... LOL it is just WAY TOO easy to eat a bank of 35 points too fast for me, so I am back to the range of points and banking for each day to save up for special occasions etc. I like this much better, I am used to it and I know it works.

My goals for exercise this week :
Monday: Go swimming
Tuesday : do ball pilates
Wednesday: go swimming or/ do 10 miles on the stationary bike
Thursday: go for a walk for a mile around the BLVD at a fast pac ( 1/2 hour usually)
Friday: do ball Pilates
Saturday: 1/2 hour od brisk wlking ro 10 miles on the stationary bike
Sunday day of rest, maybe go to the park with the family if it is nice outside.
This doesnot include any of the walking I do for gettig groceries etc. I WILL not tell myslef that it s ok to NOT do my plan just becasuse I walked to teh store for bread or the library for a book etc.

My goal is to stay on points this week and try to get in as much water as i possibly can ( cause I NEVER reach the 6 a day I am supposed to have)

try to reread the dr phil book again, i need the boost.