a step in the right direction

Well for supper to make up for my chips, i had a salad all zero points,
with a can of tuna ( 2 p) with a tbsp of light mayo ( 1p) and a tortilla
bread ( 2p) which I wrapped up and had. I added garlic and onions and
cayenne pepper for the benefits of the herbs, and drank 28 ounces of
zero point homemade lemonade with it.

Hopefully will get in 2 Ap's later as well.

IF i get hungry or feeling snackish at all I'll have an orange or apple
to keep the points to a minimum

Two steps forward, three steps back.

Well Saturday for was a bust for exercise. I was just too busy and tired by

the time everyone else settled down. Did a lot of house work i was avoiding.

Water and eating were ok though...Sunday was another story...I sucked at eating,
I'm not sure how I'm going to handle the sweet craving thing...but it is
seems related to not taking my Ritalin. I didn't take it today at all.
and I craved sweets so bad and had three small donuts. I'm going to
need a pill case with a beeper or something.

I did my exercises yesterday though instead so I got 2 AP's... still not
enough to cover the donuts, popcorn chicken and perogies for supper I
ate. On the Up side I got in a lot of water.

Still some areas needing working... but a little at a time or else I'll
just feel like chucking the whole effort out the window.

Today I started off goo with water and an apple... but then while playing Nintendo monolopy with DH I ate potato chips and the one portion I had was not enough because I didn't stop and savor the flavor, so I ended up eating 20 points in potato chips. I have 5 points for the rest of the day, so I guess I'm eating low low low points for supper. Breaking out the veggies and salad.

I'm hoping to get my Tae Bo exercises in every day this week.

Gained two poinds

It was obvious that it would happen, I ate too much at the beginning of
the week and had much more chocolates then I should have.

Doens;t matter though, I'm feel more positive, and drinking water every
day, journaling everything I eat, even if I go over, so this is the baby
step I need to start seeing results soon.

I'm house cleaning to day because I have neglected it mostly all week
doing minimal stuff, and it needs to be done, those will be good AP's,
and then later, since it is my exercise day I'll do my Tae Bo video
workout as well.

Tae Bo

Ok This is the second time I've done the 8 minute Tae Bo workout, and I have to say I really like it!!

It only takes 8 minutes ( plus warm up) and with the kids and hubby needing me so often for so much in a day, trying to fit in a 20 minute workout, or a half hour on the bike was impossible, but I can actually get this work out done. And WOW what a sweat I break.

Though it may sound lame, the fact that he walks up to the camera and talks to the viewer like he does to the others in the workout giving encouragement, it makes it feel personal, and I found myself actually working a little bit harder to show him I could do it! LOL

Only time will tell if it is effective but the website shows testimony of it working, and since it is actually fast and fun, perhaps I'll actually use this one enough to see results.Perhaps Ic an find the time to do this 8 minute workout every day instead of just 3 days a week.

I'm starting to get a little better motivated, since today's eating has been in control. A few days of better control with the eating and exercising and I'll be back in control again.

Hopfully this is the swing upwards from being in the dumps, and i'll see some healthy results from getting and staying motivated to make healthier choices.

Struggling but doing ok

OK, So i managed to get in 26 ounces of water so far today, that's good.

The last few days have been struggles though I tried to stay on points.I
ate over 50 points yesterday! but today so far I'm doing well.

I had two pieces of whole wheat toast with light cheese whiz and trans
fat free margarine on them . I had an orange with it as well.

the difference I notice today in how I'm eating is that I'm taking my
Ritalin for my ADHD, when the last few weeks I've been forgetting or not
bothering to take it and that is when I binge on sweets.

I think taking it and staying on it is going to be the difference for
me. It seems I eat to keep my brain awake and doing something.

I have 17 points left for the day to have dinner with, so I should be
more then fine.

I'm going to get some more water and do my Tae Bo exercise workout
before our TV night shows start.
then I'll make dinner.

Changes need to be made

I saw a 2 pound gain this week.back up to 184. I don't know what it is going to take but I am not being very good with food, seems I'm just grazing all the time and it is for sweets mostly.

I filled up my water picture today and am trying to get in water, but the eating is not going well. I guess I'm going to have to buckle down and journal everything I am eating, even eating off the small plate is not good enough for me right now cause I end up going back for seconds!

It seems that I just have this internal talk that keeps telling me it doesn't matter how big I am , to enjoy life and I'm tired of playing the "weight loss" game. While at the same time I know that in order to enjoy life I need to be healthy so I'm here longer and don't end up a diabetic or having heart problems or stuff.

Half of my problem right now is I'm just over worked and stressed and sore all the time so doing extra effort for foods just seems like too much work for me, and I just want to crawl under a rock and hibernate.
The kids are as demanding as ever, if not more now that the baby is walking and into so much stuff. I managed to
baby proof the dining room and move the toys into the corner here beside my desk so I can block him off from other areas.
DD's "spiritedness" is so intense these days that EVERYTHING is an argument.

Part of my food issues are that with DH's illness comes a brain misfiring issue that sometimes when food is cooked it smells bad to him and he gets physically sick and cannot eat, then 2 hours later he is asking for food to be made because he is starving, and also that he needs to eat like every 4 hours or so it seems all the time, even in the middle of the night, or he is starving and his sugars get low. I can literally hear his stomach growling and he gets weak and more sick when he gets hungry and doesn't eat. This would not be an issue for other couples, where he'd just go and get himself something to eat
but he can't do that and I end up eating when he is eating, because I'm making it.


last night at 3 am he was starving, i was sin bed already half asleep and i had to get up to make him food.
So I made him a hot roast beef sandwich from supper leftovers and I ended up eating a sandwich too. :( I didn't need it, wasn't hungry, I was just making food, and his smelled good and I've been craving carbs, so I just made it without even thinking about it. I have to get over this and stop that!

I just got home from a breastfeeding meeting , play group and we have election day here today to vote for a new Prime Minister and parliament seats, I have a tonne of housework and stuff to do and then take DD to her Sparks meeting and go vote. So, I had decided at DH's encouragement that getting Mcd's for supper was a good idea, so I just finished eating a big mac ( 13 points) I didn't even really enjoy it it was just fast and warm and cheap.

I don't know how to kick this right now.

I need to be journaling and exercising.

down 4 pounds

As I suspected.. I am at 182 this morning, the four pounds was water retention, now goen, so I have a 2 pound gain officially this week past from not following points and over indulging.

UGGG

YIKES, water retention sucks! I've gained 6 pounds this week. I'm sure 4 of that is water retention due to my period being here, so I think I gained 2 pounds in donuts and bad eating.

Seasonal Affective Disorder really sucks because my body craves carbs terribly, and therefore I end up binging on stuff I should not. not even "bad" stuff, just too much stuff.

I'm trying to up my Vitamin D intake and get some good amount of sunlight in everyday to combat the effects of the SAD. Some days are better then others.

I didn't exercise on Thursday like I was supposed to but I'm hoping to excise at some point today, right now I need to warm up, we just got hit with a cold snap after really warm snap and I went out to the video store to return a game DD was playing and I am frozen and very stiff in the joints at the moment, last night was a bad sleep night for me as I could feel the weather change coming in while is poured rain all night and now causing a flash freeze here. my hips and hands are the worst today.