Weght loss efforts are on hold due to pregnancy :)
will resume weight loss in early 2005 after the birth Stay tuned
Saturday, May 29, 2004
Saturday, May 22, 2004
yoyo
Yep I gained 4 pounds.
I am not depressed about it I am mad at myself. I KNOW the program works when you work it, I even LOST 2 pounds last week when I thought I should not have.
I do not know what it is about me mentally that will not allow myself to weight less than 170, am back up to it again!
I am having a major mental block and no matter how much I read the book or try to figure out what my pay off is for staying at 170, cannot figure it out, if I could name it I could claim it and then change it, but I am stuck!
this sucks
I know I won't get any bigger than 170 because I have no clothes big enough to grow back into. than this size, so that is a bonus,but I am really bugged by my inability to stay on program after I hit 170ish,this happens to me every time.
am I afraid to be skinny?I don't know. I need to obviously step up the mental game and work at staying on points and exercising like I used to be doing.
I am not depressed about it I am mad at myself. I KNOW the program works when you work it, I even LOST 2 pounds last week when I thought I should not have.
I do not know what it is about me mentally that will not allow myself to weight less than 170, am back up to it again!
I am having a major mental block and no matter how much I read the book or try to figure out what my pay off is for staying at 170, cannot figure it out, if I could name it I could claim it and then change it, but I am stuck!
this sucks
I know I won't get any bigger than 170 because I have no clothes big enough to grow back into. than this size, so that is a bonus,but I am really bugged by my inability to stay on program after I hit 170ish,this happens to me every time.
am I afraid to be skinny?I don't know. I need to obviously step up the mental game and work at staying on points and exercising like I used to be doing.
Saturday, May 15, 2004
down 2 pounds
I stepped on the scale today and guess what!??
I LOST, yes LOST 2 pounds!!!!!! I was amazed I told DD I could not figure out how I did that with the stress of this week and the eating i did and he said that it was probably from the walking and house cleaning I have been doing. He is probably right, but still I indulged way too much this week.
I have started reading the book again, I am the leader of a weight watchers and dr Phil yahoo group, and the troops needed some leading , so I dusted it off and we are basically reading a key a week and talking them through etc, so I did this because I know if I had to find time for myself to read it I would not have, but because I have to read it for the group, I am getting it read :) hey whatever works
I know I am worth it, just some days it gets very very overwhelming, and I feel like just laying down and letting the world run me over.
Anyway I'm glad that things are getting back to normal here (what is normal anyway)
I LOST, yes LOST 2 pounds!!!!!! I was amazed I told DD I could not figure out how I did that with the stress of this week and the eating i did and he said that it was probably from the walking and house cleaning I have been doing. He is probably right, but still I indulged way too much this week.
I have started reading the book again, I am the leader of a weight watchers and dr Phil yahoo group, and the troops needed some leading , so I dusted it off and we are basically reading a key a week and talking them through etc, so I did this because I know if I had to find time for myself to read it I would not have, but because I have to read it for the group, I am getting it read :) hey whatever works
I know I am worth it, just some days it gets very very overwhelming, and I feel like just laying down and letting the world run me over.
Anyway I'm glad that things are getting back to normal here (what is normal anyway)
Saturday, May 08, 2004
Roller blades!!
May 8th 2004
I woke up to a 2 pound loss even though I had over eaten abut 40 extra points this week, I guess the extra exercise was working out :) that makes me motivated to do better next week.
We went garage saleing today with my MIL, and got some things, ( mostly for DD of course LOL) but we faired out well with a ceiling fan for 5 dollars and I got a 89 dollar pair of high quality roller blades for only 5 dollars, which excited me immensely :) my roller blades are about 8 years old and were cheap to start with, these new ones will be nice and if it does not rain tomorrow I'll go out for a roll around the BLVD.
we went out to lunch to Honey garlic, our family favourite all you an eat buffet, I had two plates, one full of salad and then one with the small amounts of things I wanted to taste filled with lots of Chinese veggie stir-fry etc. I didn't count points today but I made good choices, then for dessert I had a small apple crumble with a scoop of ice-cream on it.
Now I am eating a veggies and tuna fish and lemon stir fry cause I'm bit hungry and going to bed soon.
I woke up to a 2 pound loss even though I had over eaten abut 40 extra points this week, I guess the extra exercise was working out :) that makes me motivated to do better next week.
We went garage saleing today with my MIL, and got some things, ( mostly for DD of course LOL) but we faired out well with a ceiling fan for 5 dollars and I got a 89 dollar pair of high quality roller blades for only 5 dollars, which excited me immensely :) my roller blades are about 8 years old and were cheap to start with, these new ones will be nice and if it does not rain tomorrow I'll go out for a roll around the BLVD.
we went out to lunch to Honey garlic, our family favourite all you an eat buffet, I had two plates, one full of salad and then one with the small amounts of things I wanted to taste filled with lots of Chinese veggie stir-fry etc. I didn't count points today but I made good choices, then for dessert I had a small apple crumble with a scoop of ice-cream on it.
Now I am eating a veggies and tuna fish and lemon stir fry cause I'm bit hungry and going to bed soon.
Monday, May 03, 2004
Derailed
Monday getting back on track
this weekend was NUTS, I totally BLEW my points. i really need to stop eating due to stress.
I started back on points today, I did ok, but I am battling the urge to just go and binge on whatever I can get my hands on. I hate stress.
I went swimming this evening because H was gracious enough to pay for me to go with her. I am going to keep track of how often she does that and pay her back in some way via favors etc. ( I am making her wedding dress and wedding cake for her july wedding)...who knew I was so talented,lol well actualylet me take a moment to brag, to boost my self esteem., I AM talented, when she was almost in tears because no store has a dress big enough for her ( she is over 350 pounds) i thought that with some modificatons I could make her a dress from a pattern with no problems, I ahve made prom gowns and wedding dresses before. so when I told hr I would make it for her if she bought the materials etc for her, she was very releived, and of course I am good at making cakes, so I will be doing a purple rose three tiered wedding cake for her with teddy bears bride and groom on the top. .. ok end of self brag and esteem boosting moment.
I pulled out my sewing machine and dusted it off and made a dedicated sewing corner for myself and am playing around with some ideas that have been bouncing around in my head recently. I made a little clutch purse last night out of jean material.
I went back to winning points, and I want it to be known that I will not.. make that totally refuse to wrap my brain around flex points... LOL it is just WAY TOO easy to eat a bank of 35 points too fast for me, so I am back to the range of points and banking for each day to save up for special occasions etc. I like this much better, I am used to it and I know it works.
My goals for exercise this week :
Monday: Go swimming
Tuesday : do ball pilates
Wednesday: go swimming or/ do 10 miles on the stationary bike
Thursday: go for a walk for a mile around the BLVD at a fast pac ( 1/2 hour usually)
Friday: do ball Pilates
Saturday: 1/2 hour od brisk wlking ro 10 miles on the stationary bike
Sunday day of rest, maybe go to the park with the family if it is nice outside.
This doesnot include any of the walking I do for gettig groceries etc. I WILL not tell myslef that it s ok to NOT do my plan just becasuse I walked to teh store for bread or the library for a book etc.
My goal is to stay on points this week and try to get in as much water as i possibly can ( cause I NEVER reach the 6 a day I am supposed to have)
try to reread the dr phil book again, i need the boost.
this weekend was NUTS, I totally BLEW my points. i really need to stop eating due to stress.
I started back on points today, I did ok, but I am battling the urge to just go and binge on whatever I can get my hands on. I hate stress.
I went swimming this evening because H was gracious enough to pay for me to go with her. I am going to keep track of how often she does that and pay her back in some way via favors etc. ( I am making her wedding dress and wedding cake for her july wedding)...who knew I was so talented,lol well actualylet me take a moment to brag, to boost my self esteem., I AM talented, when she was almost in tears because no store has a dress big enough for her ( she is over 350 pounds) i thought that with some modificatons I could make her a dress from a pattern with no problems, I ahve made prom gowns and wedding dresses before. so when I told hr I would make it for her if she bought the materials etc for her, she was very releived, and of course I am good at making cakes, so I will be doing a purple rose three tiered wedding cake for her with teddy bears bride and groom on the top. .. ok end of self brag and esteem boosting moment.
I pulled out my sewing machine and dusted it off and made a dedicated sewing corner for myself and am playing around with some ideas that have been bouncing around in my head recently. I made a little clutch purse last night out of jean material.
I went back to winning points, and I want it to be known that I will not.. make that totally refuse to wrap my brain around flex points... LOL it is just WAY TOO easy to eat a bank of 35 points too fast for me, so I am back to the range of points and banking for each day to save up for special occasions etc. I like this much better, I am used to it and I know it works.
My goals for exercise this week :
Monday: Go swimming
Tuesday : do ball pilates
Wednesday: go swimming or/ do 10 miles on the stationary bike
Thursday: go for a walk for a mile around the BLVD at a fast pac ( 1/2 hour usually)
Friday: do ball Pilates
Saturday: 1/2 hour od brisk wlking ro 10 miles on the stationary bike
Sunday day of rest, maybe go to the park with the family if it is nice outside.
This doesnot include any of the walking I do for gettig groceries etc. I WILL not tell myslef that it s ok to NOT do my plan just becasuse I walked to teh store for bread or the library for a book etc.
My goal is to stay on points this week and try to get in as much water as i possibly can ( cause I NEVER reach the 6 a day I am supposed to have)
try to reread the dr phil book again, i need the boost.
Saturday, May 01, 2004
170 and holding
The computer has been dead for a while , so I have been unable to keep this updated the way I like. I am back ohline now and hopefully things will pick up again.
I am holding at 170 pounds right now for over a month becasue I ahve not been eating well and my swimming pass is over and I needed to find other ways to exercise.
well i weighed today and I ahve not lost a pound all week even though I have been on points all week and exercised three days so far as well. I think maybe cause I chart my food from monday to sunday now I should perhaps change my weight in day to monday? I'm not sure. it just feels a little disapointing to have not lost any weight after a week on OP and exercise.
I am trying to look at the positive of it all that it is for health and not necessairly the weight loss. but it was hard not to buy chocolate at the store when I went for milk, thinking with " well it work this ahrd and it didn't work anyway I might as well enjoy the chocloate I have been craving"
I didn;t buy it, but it was a battle.
I am holding at 170 pounds right now for over a month becasue I ahve not been eating well and my swimming pass is over and I needed to find other ways to exercise.
well i weighed today and I ahve not lost a pound all week even though I have been on points all week and exercised three days so far as well. I think maybe cause I chart my food from monday to sunday now I should perhaps change my weight in day to monday? I'm not sure. it just feels a little disapointing to have not lost any weight after a week on OP and exercise.
I am trying to look at the positive of it all that it is for health and not necessairly the weight loss. but it was hard not to buy chocolate at the store when I went for milk, thinking with " well it work this ahrd and it didn't work anyway I might as well enjoy the chocloate I have been craving"
I didn;t buy it, but it was a battle.
